joshuazelinsky

Most recent entry in "back on my Seeming bullshit" is A Failure of Imagination, because dang, I really like "And this is a love song / Even if it doesn’t sound like one / ‘Cause there’s a lot of strange love / That doesn’t fit into the way love’s done".

I've spent the last two days at work slowly working through all their albums I've bought from Bandcamp, which is most of them at this point. This is partly because I was showing Clayton Workbestie my 2013 ipod that I've found and started carrying around, and he responded with something like "I bet it has happier music". I demurred, but added that I wasn't on my Seeming bullshit then, which got a positive "oh hey dope, you listen to Seeming too?" and then I had to pretend I listen to it a normal amount and not approximately 50% of my music by time this calendar year.

I have not been posting well, because I've been Fuckin' Busy and also because I've been carefully falling apart with the end of the year. There's a lot of "not now" tasks that are about to come absolutely slamming into "now" and I'm kinda struggling to keep track of all of them. I like dreaming of the world where I can actually track things like todo lists.

Yesterday was a really good day though, up until the part where I fell extremely asleep in a weird curled up heap on my bed with the laptop open:

*I restarted a knitting project that hadn't gone immediately perfect (I am genuinely pleased with myself for a: noticing that it wasn't going satisfyingly and taking steps immediately, so I only frogged a couple days worth of work and not longer, and b: making the project Much Harder for myself in a way that felt extremely satisfyingly stupid¹.)

*We're in MCAS hell, which is awful as always, but at least it's the last of the year, and it is giving me lots of bonus prep time to fuck around in my classroom and do nebulously useful things, like work on my knitting but also *some* grading.

*Also it means I can fuck off to the pharmacy before school today, which was good and necessary.

*Yesterday's DnD went SO GOOD! I both _very badly whiffed_ a roll, and then got to do some fun acting/social stuff and then _very much succeeded_ in the killing blow on the big bad we've been chasing after for quite a while. I have forgotten how much I miss having tanky characters and being able to actually like. Do damage to enemies! Anyways, it was real good, and also it was very funny to casually be like "and of course when Josh and Eve visit Boston in a couple weeks we'll all play in person together" and have both of them *and* Scoop be like "wait, that's an amazing idea". Like, y'all!

*Also watching Taskmaster with Tailsteak was Real Good! It always is, but we've missed a couple weeks in a row for various bullshit, so it was really nice to get closer to caught up. We're really enjoying this season! Which I feel like I say every season, but "do something brave" was _fantastic_. I really appreciate that we're having a season where it seems like everyone actually does want to win!

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Anyways, I probably have other things I ought to be writing about, but I don't remember them because I am perpetually short-changed on sleep. I hope you're doing well!

~Sor
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1: Part of me feels I should elaborate, but much more of me feels like, you either get it or you don't.

I decided I wanted to use only half of each colour skein at a time so I unwound every single one of them, carefully so I could find an approximate halfway point, and then cut them there and rewound them. There are definitely both easier and better ways to do this (certainly the best would involve weight rather than length, especially because yarn is kinda stretchy) but it was very satisfying to set up a couple yardsticks taped to my work desk to unwind onto.

OKAY HI!

Some good things I have done recently:

*Actually tried to get some real sleep in a real bed some of these nights? Of course, I'm only just getting to words now at midnight, so that's not really great for continuing the trend, but at least tomorrow is an incredibly mellow day at work.

*Done a _lot_ of nostalgia-searching old hard drives for interesting things. This is mostly in the pursuit of flirtation, because of course it is, but also in the pursuit of having a good time with nostalgia!

*Found my old ipod, it's got about 5k songs on it from circa 2013. I am _very very_ enjoying listening to them, even though it's annoyingly a little jank on the headphone jack and I only get input from the left headphone.

*Went to Pinewoods for the Work Weekend! This was SUCH A GOOD WORK WEEKEND! I did lots of very good work! Lots of scrobbling in the sticks and leaves! Getting put in charge of a work crew that immediately unionized against me! A little bit of knitting! No swimming because it is wayyyyy too early in the season! Showing new friends my beloved Home, complete with dead mice and horrible bathroom paintings!

*Work is exhausting right now. We're close to the end. But not close enough. But I'm making it through, and that's pretty good!

*Got to have dinner at Willow and Alexander's house, which involved a lot of looking at their wedding photos and then joining Willow in chanting "put it on" at Alexander until they showed us how pretty their wedding suit was. I am always pleased when my blanket "I will do all your dishes in exchange for food" offer actually gets taken up.

*Last night's exec meeting was _thoroughly satisfying_ and then I had enough energy to run a bunch of data about my class and the data was REALLY GOOD! I still need to actually use it to write my AGM report, but my AGM report is gonna mention shit like "Yeah, I've had over 80 people try my class out, and half of them have come back at least once" which is _fantastic_ kinds of numbers actually.

*I dunno man, like, my life is good and weird? I've been trying to lie down on the bench on the back porch for a little while every day when coming home from school and that is really nice? I do need to stop getting endlessly distracted from words so I can go to bed, so I guess that's all here for now. G'night!

~Sor
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